My story - updated

My story

In my my childhood I was bullied and struggled a lot with the tragic loss of a sibling.
I never expected this tragic loss to happen at such a young age, 
I was 9 years old when my brother committed suicide it left me broken. 
I held on to this pain of loss for so long, I guess that is how Chill in my vein came to life.
it was hard for me as that child who never got help like they do now.
I was angry and took anger out on my family at the age of 16 & felt I was lied to until I demanded the truth about his death. Up to this day I felt I can accept his passing.
Of course I struggled with serious mental health issues back then and mental health services drug me up. Mental health team in NZ have a bad reputation anyways. Sadly I was sexually assaulted by a man who worked in mental health.
I was under so much emotions, I went through mental health which did nothing to change how I felt about my lose. 
I continued to find my way through teenage life, even though I was bullied and struggled at school and kids can be so cruel. However, I worked on my life and married my ex-husband who abused me. I was divorced at 23 but I found my spiritual path at the age of 30 after I lost another brother took his life through suicide He died when I was 28 years old. I never forgotten the day I got the call while at a boyfriends place and found out that he shot himself with his gun and it was the most tragic death I’ve ever had to witness. 
My father had a stroke and that was a spiritual situation.
He wasn’t to survive but he did and now he a universal lesson. 
Leaning on your faith and something will happen for the right reasons, 
I’m that living proof. Here I am still learning from all experiences
I have had. no matter how horrible they were.  
I now see the light in them. 
When I was 20 a guy who worked as volunteer for mental health on the coast in NZ 
sexually assaulted me and it went through serious court case which it was emotionally tough on me. I didn’t know how to handle anything back then. 
Read my other blog about my experience of Rising above sexual abuse.
All my negative experiences left me having anxiety and searching for the right therapy took a journey to get there. Most relationships were negative & abusive all I wanted was to be loved but I was looking in the wrong places, I learned at the age of 32 that love comes from within self acceptance. I went through a lot this is why my story will have an impact on you, what I went through was no accident the universe wanted me to use my experience as a way to help you through the hard stuff. For many years my inner child was damaged from past issues but I learned how to love and accept that child when no one else will. 
Once someone see’s how much love and acceptance they will want to be with you. 
Life is a spiritual journey that I know myself! I was in the music industry for my music and here I am known in NZ and my fans love me for my work. 
I studied fitness for 2 years and that didn’t work out but I got to know myself through the process, in 2015 I studied life coaching and got certified, it was a passion I had to self improvement and spiritual path to happiness. In my my childhood I was bullied and struggled a lot, I never expected a tragic loss to happen at such a young age, I was 9 years old when my older brother committed suicide it left me broken. I held on to this pain of lose for so long it was hard for me as that child who never got help like they do now. I was angry took anger out on my family at the age of 16 & felt I was lied to until I demanded the truth to his death, of course I struggled with serious mental health issues back then and mental health services drug me up. Studying life coaching was worth it my inner guide was happy the universe showed me the way to my calling. At the age of 30 I was sexually assaulted again but different person who was out for revenge to damage my life and career, but the guide said stay strong this person will be judged by the god of this universe and have hope. Faith and hope is what kept me hanging on I was suicidal myself after what I went through and that is a good reason why the universe granted me my certification in life coaching. I really do hope my story to inspire you to have faith in the universe it has your back and know faith is your biggest strength through anything.
my life became more positive and found a purpose to live. 
If you struggle to know what your purpose is then you need to think about why the universe is supporting you write it down in a journal start getting to know who you are through the power of self improvement journey, come for a session learn how you can make that change like I did with my life. Here I am stronger than ever before because my spiritual guidance of the universe supported me. No matter what we go through they are universal lessons to learn from and grow into someone amazing people asking me how did I stay so positive after what I experienced I said because the universe gave me hope and faith to hold on to. I faced another death of a brother who put a bullet in his head and a loss of my father who had a stroke lasted for passed 9 years until his breathing conditions got to the point that he couldn’t live. I had the strength to say goodbye and speak at funeral that took courage. My cat lasted 19 years had since I was 21 and sadly a year ago she passed away and that was devastating but I faced it with strength. So what courage did you have to face your experiences? Watch my story below 👇 

Thank you for sharing this time with me reading my story.

Lori from Lifesuccessnz xx 💋





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